The Mumblings of Me

                     I'm sorry for the broken words.

Suicide

I'm hurting inside.
The answer to my problems, suicide.
That's the only answer I see.
No other way , no other solution for me.

I'm undecided on how I should take my life.
Should I pop a bullet in my head or stab myself with a knife.
Which way I can't decide.
I've got a one track mind, all I'm thinking, suicide.

Should I give those around me one last goodbye?
No more living life based on a lie.
No more pitying all the times I have cried.
The only way out is suicide.

Why did this life of mine ever have to begin?
I'm fighting with my inner self and my inner self can't seem to win.
Now I'm wondering if I'll be missed once I've died.
It really doesn't matter, all that matters is suicide.

Hidden Pain

Hidden beneath the smiles,
is my whole world of pain.
You think I smile for you,
you're wrong and much too vain.
I smile because I don't want
any of my friends to see,
All this hurt and sadness,
you've been causing me.
To you it looks like I'm happy,
I'm only smiling on the outside.
Truly you don't know me,
I'm crying for you deep inside.
Every day I wake up,
Hoping you still care.
I call you till the day ends,
but you are never there.
Even though I love you,
more than you'll ever know.
I have to say goodbye for now,
because you have no love to show